Have you ever had your plans change? I don’t mean appointments or coffee dates, I mean drastic life changes that happen in a heartbeat. I have, a few times and one of those was this summer.
I had my summer planned. I would work all summer as a nanny and back to work in the fall. I was excited about a trip to the Ark Encounter (https://arkencounter.com/), and to visit family. I was excited about meeting up with some of my Revelation Wellness (www.revelationwellness.org) family and to hang out with my own family, beach days, bbq’s, road trips, you name it.
That changed very quickly. My plans were brought to a screeching halt; we got some news that would change my summer drastically. I had to quit my job and be home. I wasn’t able to go on that trip to see the Ark, I wasn’t able to see my rev family, the beach days and road trips didn’t happen. Well, the road trips did, but for other reasons that weren’t as enjoyable. My plans were changed, but it makes me wonder, were they my plans or God’s plans? I don’t think they were His. I was just doing what seemed logical at the time.
This summer was hard, and challenging. There were times that I wanted to run from everything going on. I wanted to curl up in the lap of Jesus and cry, and many times I did exactly that. There were other times I gave into comforting myself with food. Life can change in an instant, I think we all know that to some extent but when it happens to you it seems life altering. I’ve had life change quickly before, when my dad passed away. This change was life altering but in a different way.
This change caused me to serve instead of being served. It caused me to see how stinkin’ blessed I am by the people around me. It caused me to slow down, a lot! I love to go, I don’t sit still for long but this summer I sat still for longer than normal. I pressed in and continue to press into the Lord, sometimes that looks like getting mad at Him, sometimes it looks like a child curling up in a Father’s lap. There were times when I would lie in my bed in the dark and just listen to the quiet because that was the only time I could shut off my brain, even though it still reminded me of every “to-do” on my list.
I’m saying all of this to say, interruption is ok. God knows what is best for us and He is always in control. It may feel like your life is in a downward spiral but one thing I’ve learned over the last 6 months is that He is in control and He is good. That last statement can be a hard one to grasp. You may be going through a divorce, death in the family, an unexpected diagnosis of you or a family member, whatever it may be, He is good. I wept the other night as I was surrounded by 50 teenagers and adults singing songs about how good God is. I know it in my heart but sometimes my head and my heart aren’t always in sync.
I want to encourage you, whatever you may be facing right now, turn to Him. Spend time with Him, He wants to hang out with you and love you…. let Him! If you need a podcast or something to listen to, to turn your brain off check out the Be Still & Be Loved podcast by Alisa Keeton, founder of Revelation Wellness (https://itunes.apple.com/ca/podcast/revelation-wellness-healthy-whole/id671958238?mt=2).
As I was getting ready to hit “publish” on this post God reminded me of my word for the year, “wholehearted”. Back in January I had no idea what that meant for me this year, but I’ve seen Him reveal a little more to me the past few months of what wholehearted living looks like. According to the Webster’s Dictionary, “wholehearted” means “showing or characterized by complete sincerity or commitment”. I don’t share this to be prideful, I share it to say, He keeps His promises, and cares about us and He really does talk to us if we will listen. Like I said, I had no idea what this word for the year meant, and had never really had Him give me a word but this one I couldn’t get off my mind and He kept bringing it back to me. Whatever promise, prayer request, etc you are waiting for, don’t give up. He will answer it, but only in His time. Go spend some time with Him.
Press into Him.
P.S. I was reading through and was ready to publish this blog when I found out, plans changed again. I was supposed to go to an event in a couple of weeks but due to issues beyond their control had to cancel it. Deep down I know it’s for the better, but I don’t like it. We don’t have to like His plan, but we do need to trust Him and know He knows exactly what is best. For that event, He had a plan that was amazing and it pulled people up into leadership who may have shrunk back a little at the possibility otherwise. He is so good to His kids.